AIESEC elections. 8.30am till 11pm, with hardly any break at all in between. Hardly ate. Tough decisions made, victories celebrated. Not many people persevered till the end, but I did. Partly out of obligation, partly because I suck at excusing myself from such situations. It was kinda like Rhythmic Gymnastics. I stuck around, and became captain. Changed my life. I stuck around today, and then I think I feel like running for an EB term.
Grace the current MCP said something today that kind stuck in my brain. She said that the fact that all of us young people could come together and devote so much of our time together to make a difference in the future of our organisation is a very beautiful thing. I agree. It's pretty amazing. Right now I do feel that this is a very important part of my life. I've been moved.
Okay, results for MC candidates just came out, and I'm awfully disappointed. Someone I really have faith in didn't get through to the next round. Someone I didn't have so much faith in did. Come to think of it, the latter, I shouldn't have voted for! Why, I must have been just doing the logical thing that my heart didn't really agree with. I'm confused. I thought that I had voted right. Perhaps my vote didn't really make a difference there. Or perhaps it did, in which case I would be feeling awful.
I'm glad, however, that MCP and LCP election results really turned out according to my votes, which I really put in a lot of effort to decide. My head was bursting with the pressure of making the right choice, because I knew that my vote carried weight.
[Edit @ 2.35AM: Just found out that LCP winning margin was by a vote of ONE. Oh my God!! Suddenly I feel so important!! My vote really really really counted! I'm so happy that I put so much thought into it and voted so seriously. I am really glad!]
Today's 70 speeches were all well-prepared and well-delivered. I learned so much. I didn't know that there are such nuances to public delivery of an idea. I really also saw, unfortunately, how the tone of one's speech can make or break one's chance, especially if the audience does not know the candidate personally. Charisma really matters, and while the fun factor is important, it is sincerity and trustworthiness that really matter. It is the belief that the speaker can generate in the voters that he/she will achieve the deliverables promised.
I learnt a lot today. At least I'd like to think so, considering the amount if time I had invested. When attending such AIESEC Singapore events, I always question myself a lot, about my passion in life, my beliefs, my capability and the impact I can possibly achieve. (Speaking of which, I still haven't finished up my NLDC post.) I always wonder how I can push myself to be more like these people. It's not because they seem like such amazing demigods or something. On the contrary, it is their ordinariness that really touches me. True, when I just joined AIESEC, I used to think of every AIESECer as a super-being. But having been here for some time, I got to know more and more of those 'high up' people on a personal level. They know me by name, we talk. They encourage me to participate, share my ideas. I wonder how they are just like me, yet they can do so many things. How can I be it too? How can they be so ordinary, yet so extraordinary?
I want to harness my energy in the right way. Honestly, I do. I need to think these things through, talk to people. It's about time I believe in the power if this organization, and contribute to it.
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